T..M...I... is what I like to affectionately call Too Much Information. I have decided that my 4 day "funk", "pity party", "being a brat" :) is really because there has been Too Much Information going on in the past months. Especially in the past few weeks. Not only information, but, changes. It is funny, I have been totally Ms. Cool....all put together, except for a few stress out parties here and there. But, I think now that I got home....the exhaustion and demands of it all hit me. For all of you going through adoption or just being a mom, or you don't even have to be a Mom, you can just be going through life...you'll know what I mean. But, especially us going through the adoption process. The information overload is Wowza
" You need this document notarized, apostilled, sent to this address...etc" And then all of the Lists that I had created to fly for the first trip "Don't forget this, don't forget that...here is where the girls clothes are...don't forget their vitamins"....Oh yea, Lilly and Stilts.. our cutie pattottie animals...."Don't forget to give them this and that"....
Then when you get to Russia, it is fantastic, awesome, life changing, exhausting, never walked so much in my life, scared out of your mind at times because of not sure what to expect next, and then awed by the experience and then meeting our child for the first time. Then, the plane ride, oh lord :). Then, you get home and you are so excited to see your children. But, they really don't know you have been on a roller coaster ride...so, it is time to pick right up with normal life. But, your body and mind are in "TMI" overload. All week it has been "Mommy, Mommy, Mommy, Mommy....." There haven't been sweeter words and at the same time, I wished I could say...."can you just hang on a minute and let Mommy take a little nap, I am exhausted". It doesn't work that way.
We just got the call that it looks like our 2nd trip might be the week of April 10th. Holy COW!. That is awesome!. But, HOLY SHIT....excuse me if I offended anyone, but, that is the only appropriate word that I could think of ;) We are back on the roller coaster ride again.
Trust me when I say this, I am so excited to have a 3rd child. Seeing his eyes, touching his hands, smelling his hair, tickling his feet....it still brings tears to my eyes. But, it also is a change. Knowing that in a month or so, that our house will having a lot of children yelling "Mommy" is exciting and a little scary if I can be honest with you. It is not that I can't handle it. I can handle it. I just hope that I can be the best Mom that I can be. I spend too much time trying to be the best at everything and that is when I fall down. So, thank you very much for all of your responses to my last post. It gave me SOOO much to think about. Because if I don't take care of myself....I can't take care of my family and I can't do the things that I am passionate about. So, I think I will take you guys up on that Pedicure. In fact, I have a Gift Certificate that I haven't cashed in. Men just don't understand that a good manicure and pedicure or massage can pretty much cure the worlds problems. :)
Thank you so much for your great words!! I am on my way back up!. You guys are the best!. And Lisa....girl, how can I forget the apartment days...we had a blast. You are too sweet and your comments made me cry. I love you sis!. Thanks for your voice mail. I will call you soon!. By the way, don't let Lisa fool you.....I was only up and out the door because I just grabbed whatever I found in my closet, whereas she had gloriously long curly hair and looked like a fashion model and her clothes matched. When your clothes don't match and you have straight hair like me, it doesn't take a lot of time....ha ha !!! (well, I did match sometimes....but, others will debate that...ha!)